somuch4gluttony

I really wanted to write a well thought out, entertaining entry, but I'm on empty, and exhausted, sorry =/

I used my official cheat meal on Valentines Day, eating a salted caramel waffle, and potatoes for breakfast. A coke and a box of Sugar Babies followed me to the theater, however I only drank half of my soda...

Clearly I was getting sick.

Dinner was on the healthier side, and my end weight for the week was 200.5lbs. This is a 3.5lb decrease from my new Day 1 starting weight, and is primarily the initial affects of detoxing I assume, but maybe that doesn't exist and I'm wrong. I'm pretty sure the next however many pounds will be harder to lose as I get slightly closer to optimal weight.

The next day I was verrrrrry sick with Chicago's latest epidemic. Sore throat, stuffed nose, can't swallow, can't sleep. I worked three of these days for very large chunks of time, and didn't plan my meals out with much thought, but ate more on the good side than bad. I assume the .5lbs I lost over the last 4 days is boogerweight, but I will take it.

My eating has become boring at best, and I need some new ideas. I'm tired.

1pm:

270 nature valley brown sugar oatmeal

270k T

4pm:

100k slice whole grain bread
200k 2 tbsp natural peanut butter
90k 2 tbsp organic blueberry jam

390k T

730pm:

100k 1 slice whole grain bread
60k 1 slice reduced fat med cheddar
170k 2 slices ( 4oz ) roast beef from deli
100k 2 slices ( 4oz ) smoked turkey from deli
sliced onion
mustard and franks hot sauce
35k 1 tbsp vinaigrette
cup and half spinach

460k T

12:30am:

Went to a show with my gf, and meant to bring along a larabar, but grabbed some supplement sample bar instead, which I opted not to eat. Long lapse between meals here, and I'm starving.

35k hard taco shell
100k low fat flour tortilla
350k 6oz Filet for
100k 1/2 cup white rice cilantro with lime
20k 4tbsp salsa
35k low fat sour cream
90k 1/3 avocado

730k T

1850 taken in of the 2,636 calories I need to maintain weight which is a 784k deficit. The deficit is closer to correct, but I'd like to have thrown in 2 more meals for my metabolisms benefit. Still working out the kinks I guess.

When I started this journal a few years back, I was already a month into my shiny new dietary routine, and had already repressed the immediate affects of my change in meal plans, so this is good, right?

My head is throbbing from caffeine withdrawal, I had to turn down free pepperoni pizza at work my first day back, and my bladder is in some state of advanced self-conspiring possession - speaking in tongues, writhing, and totally fixated on me pissing myself bi-hourly. Fucking sucks. If it weren't for the compulsion to sex my girlfriend out in the streets, while appearing presentable, I'd be searching for part time work at Sbarro.

My friend David and I are hopeless without written accountability, and during our knitting bee, after going on for many hours about Heidi Klum and SEAL calling it quits, we decided to get un-fat ( I mean, SEAL is single again, amirite?). I'm 204lbs which isn't atrocious compared to my starting weight of 215 a few years back, relatively speaking, but relatively speaking is ogrish when I used to be a rather good-looking 190lb-er. I mean, this is not muscle I put on. So, here are the new stats, and what I brought with me to eat while I worked all day ( not remotely ideal ):

30yo, 6'3'', 204, sedentary ( go to fundamentals tab on left for caloric formulas, and ideal meal plan )

Sleep schedule sucks and our fridge is empty:

2pm:

105k 1.5 eggs w/yolk
40k.5   slice natural cheddar
80k orange
100k slice grain toast
50k tbsp whipped butter
90k 1.5 tbsp organic blueberry jam
40k half cup homemade iced green tea

505k T

5pm:

190k nature valley bar

190k T

7:30pm:

200k Small side chx breast cooked by Casino in some oil prob
10k a bunch of spinach I brought
55k tbsp italian

265k T

10:15pm:

 45k slice whole grain bread
200k 2 tbsp natural peanut butter
 90k 2 tbsp organic blueberry jam

335k T

12:15am:

80k orange

80k T

4am:

220k Progresso tortilla soup w chx

220k T

Heh, so I took in 1,595 of the 2,636 calories I need to maintain weight which is a 1,041k deficit. Ideally we are between 500-800, so this is far too much, and I'm starving. I worked from 4pm-4am, and packed what I had on me, but it wasn't much. Heading to the store now so I'm not trying to eat other peoples food at work by smelling really hard. I'll probably just do some home type workouts while I detox this first week, and then start back up at LA Boxing.

Day 1 in the books.

Well shit, I need this again!

After the last entry, I had just begun a love affair with my very own legs. I could sense it's permanency, but also that my legs might not be enough, and my elbows and knees were going to have to be thrown into the mix or things could get stale. Kickboxing overtook Boxing, and Muay Thai was looking pretty hot. The shitty thing about this is that Boxing, exclusively Boxing, or exclusively anything that involves a certain limb and its adjoining parts, is such a demanding workout, and a workout was what I was initially doing this for. Fortunately, I suppose, I didn't need to put in much leg work ( although Kickboxing IS excellent ab work ), and taking away from the more intense Boxing only workouts by incorporating legs makes me feel like I have lost something. I'm cluttering things up, it's just that I've never really been good at finding a strong balance, and I'd hate to settle for a mediocre one, although I suppose I'm getting away from this being a workout, and thinking more about the sport aesthetic, so fuck me, right?

It's irrelevant anyhow as I haven't done jack-shit since I've moved. I'm about an hour away from my old gym via trains and buses ( was 5 min walk ), and 30mins or so from a different one that I like less. I have gone, but not as frequently, and it tends to take up a good chunk of my day since:

- It's far, so I feel forced to stay there longer and try to make the most of my commute
- I'm far, so I don't see my "gym friends" as often, which leads to time spent playing catch up

Moving also had me knocked off of my normal dietary routines, stemming from an inability to immediately prioritize despite the familiarity issues that come from living in a new location. I can get fucking lazy when my little rituals need reshaping. Like, my grocery store is closer now than it was, wtf. I know it's no excuse, but having a roommate again, and sharing that common space was a reluctance to use the kitchen for me, and it's not a knock on him because he's a really good guy, it's just one of those things. Maybe I'm bad at living when I'm not living alone? I mean, I know I'm weird. Meh...

Aside from that, my normal job of internet pokering has been locked away by the government, so I've spent more time traveling over to the casino in Indiana, and private games around the city ( Chicago ), which is sooo lame, in order to avoid getting a regular job again, although I indefinitely should just get one. I was in Las Vegas for the World Series of Poker for the entire month of June, and destroyed my body as much as possible without adding alcohol/drugs into the mix. My friend David and I only made it to an LA Boxing once throughout the duration, so my cardio looks like a giant frown, and my beautiful tan was erased by a siege of processed air vents and perma nightowlism.

After returning, my girlfriend introduced me to the wondrous grubhub.com, and cooked me a few batches of tasty pasta, prompting me to cook lots of tasty pasta for myself. It would be fair to say that I'm not on point these days =) A redeeming fact is that I really did do a lot of work prior to the move, and I wasn't atrocious pre Vegas, so all will be well, but there is work to be done.

Sore this morning. My legs haven't fully recovered from explosive exercises over the last few weeks, but the plan is to see if I can fight through Rob's absurdly brutal class...if he's teaching today, that is. Part of me is just curious to see if some percentage of the class just doesn't show after what they were put through last Wednesday.

8am:

200k serving of dove 71% bittersweet chocolate
120k banana
  80k orange

400k T

11am:

 34k 2 egg whites
 70k 1 whole egg
160k 2 turkey sausage
 40k hardly any shredded cheddar
 80k orange
 45k slice grain toast
 45k tbsp natural blueberry jam
 50k tbsp whipped butter

524k T

3pm:

50k some watermelon
190k nature valley bar

240k T

6pm:

225k 7.5oz blackened chicken
  85k tbsp ceasar
  50k 1 slice reduced fat provolone
  74k 1/4 avocado
pico
  15k few cups romaine
180k 1 glutten free/wheat free wrap ( idk why I got these ones really. Bunch of people crowding the tortilla section and this just appeared ok )

629k T

6:45 pm:

So I walk to the gym kind of crossing my fingers that Rob wont be teaching today, and he's the first thing I see when I look in the window. At least I got to come to terms with it quick. His class is absurd as per usual, but I knew what to expect, so it wasn't as much a shock to my system this time. I was actually sort of surprised it was over so soon since last weeks seemed like it would never end. Still, such a dirty dirty workout.

Afterwords I sat and caught up with trainer/friend Aaron. and basically confided that I feel like a fake walking in there these days. I realize I signed up for this for the conditioning, and to get in shape, and I feel like as far as classes go I'm an okay example, and I'm accomplishing my initial volition, but I'm really not progressing at all as a fighter. Too much ego. I need to drop it and start at least doing some kickboxing/muay thai/mitt work, and then sparring. So that's next week's goal: At least one class besides boxing.

Furthermore, I really need to start getting some food in my system immediately after class, or at least a shake of some sort.

10:11 pm:

Just too beat to cook a meal

190k nature valley bar
120k 1.5 cup fresh pineapple

310k T

12am:

100k 1/2 serving choc
120k banana

220k T

2323k T taken in of the 3085k needed to maintain weight for a 762k deficit. Much better! Although I'm pretty sure I burned ever calorie I took in over the last few days. HA!

Monday I had friends in from St Louis, and we ate a ton of pasta. I wouldn't know where to start from a caloric standpoint, so I'm going to regrettably make this my cheat meal/overfeed for the week and move ahead to Tuesday.

Tuesday:

3:50 pm:

160k 1/2 cup quaker brown sugar oatmeal
150k 1/2 cup quaker oats
105k med banana
100k cup 1% organic milk
  10k 2 strawberry
160k 1/3 granola

685k T

11am:

200k serving dove 71% dark chocolate
 80k orange

280k T

1:30 pm:

190k nature valley bar

190k T

5:30 pm:

Definitely should've eaten before this boxing class, but was on the phone regarding some stupid unauthorized bank charges for forever. Took Aaron's class, which was good. Dreading tomorrow's class with the punisher. Body feels more fatigued than sore.

8:30 pm:

Had to run to the store and pick up chicken so I didn't eat right after class.

270k 9oz blackened chicken
145k half avocado
 20k tbsp low fat sour cream
 45k slice whole grain bread
 50k slice low fat provolone
155k corn on the cob

685k T

1840k taken in of the 3085k I need to maintain weight for a 1245k deficit. No bueno; Not enough meals or calories. I have to keep from shorting myself more than 1,000k for sure. Secretly, given that I had my weekly cheat days in close proximity, I'm sorta happy I didn't eat as much, but it's really not part of the plan, so...

Woke up and went to the store for eggs. Had a stare down with a box of chocolate covered turtles and won. Being too broke helped.

34k 2 egg whites
70k 1 whole egg
160k 2 turkey sausage
40k hardly any shredded cheddar
80k orange
45k slice grain toast
50k tbsp whipped butter

479k T

6:52 pm:

200k serving dove 71% dark chocolate
 80k orange
120k banana

400k T

10pm:

~600k steak burrito from work
 125k 1/2 cup spanish rice
  90k 3 tbsp guacamole

815k T

3pm:

The cooks at work made me a plate of pork ribs, which was nice, but I didn't really want them. I had no idea these were so calorie packed; I'm glad I only ate two.

~100k small coke
~950K 2 ribs

1050K T

7am:

200k choc
120k banana
 80k orange

400k T

3144k taken in of the 3085k I need to maintain weight for an overfeed of 59k. Could be more or less depending on how many K those work meals actually were. I guesstimated. Ate kinda crappy today.

Today is my cheat day ( overfeed ), but my boss kinda flipped my meal plans around, and it's not going to be as regimented as I had initially planned. These meal plans are getting tedious again as well, sorry to anyone looking for ideas. I'll switch it up after the work weekend some.

3pm:

 80k orange
 45k slice whole grain bread
150k 1.5 tbsp natural peanut butter
 90k 1.5 tbsp organic blueberry jam
 80k orange

445k T

Abs workout somewhere in here.

6pm:

 45k 1 slice whole grain bread
 60k 1 slice reduced fat med cheddar
170k 2 slices ( 4oz ) roast beef from deli
100k 2 slices ( 4oz ) smoked turkey from deli
sliced onion
mustard and franks hot sauce
 35k 1 tbsp vinaigrette
cup and half mixed greens
 25k half cup of crappy out of season watermelon

435k T

9pm:

120k banana

120k T

11pm:

~ 1500k 1/2 bacon cheeseburger and waflle fries
  130k 12oz coke

1630k

2am:

~ 350k vanilla shake from work

350k T

6am:

720k slice grateful cherry cheesecake

720k T

7:45 am:

190k nature valley bar
120k banana

310k T

4010k taken in of the 3085k I needed to maintain my weight for a 925k overfeed which is just about what I needed. Oh, Alyssa brought in some bubble tea as well, so I guess that brings me over 1k for sure. After eating healthy all week and re building water cravings, my cheat meal wasn't that great overall, which I guess is a good thing. Soreness isn't so bad either.

Woke up and did short abs cycle and stretched my legs a ton. Leg lifts absolutely killed b/c of Wednesday's class. Not really sure how to calculate this log as I was awake the better part of 24 hours bc of work, so I ate a ton. Though I suppose it's all one day, and I guess I should treat it as such. This will most likely be an overfeed then, but all pretty healthy stuff.

9am:

 34k 2 egg whites
 70k 1 whole egg
160k 2 turky sausage
 50k tiny bit of natural shredded chedder
 80k orange
 45k slice grain toast
 50k tbsp whipped butter

489k T

11 am:

160k 1/3 cup granola
120k banana

280k T

2:21 pm:

 45k 1 slice whole grain bread
 60k 1 slice reduced fat med cheddar
170k 2 slices ( 4oz ) roast beef from deli
100k 2 slices ( 4oz ) smoked turkey from deli
sliced onion
mustard and franks hot sauce
 35k 1 tbsp vinaigrette
cup and half mixed greens

410k T

5:40 pm:

 80k orange
 45k small piece of whole grain bread
150k 1.5 tbsp natural peanut butter
 90k 1.5 tbsp organic blueberry jam
 
365k T

7:22 pm:

190k nature valley bar

190k T

11pm - 1am:

~1000k bbq chx salad from work without the tortilla strips ( ~14 cups lettuce, black beans, 15oz chicken, bbq sauce, jack cheese, corn, avocado, tbsp ranch ) 

1000k T

7am:

230k english muffin
 75k 1.5 tbsp whipped butter
honey

305k T

2939k T taken in of the 3085k needed to maintain weight for a 146k deficit. Cool, I'm surprised.

Did nothing in the ways of exercise aside from some skateboarding and stretching. My legs are wrecked still from class and my right shoulder will twitch repeatedly for minutes every now and again, it's funny to watch. I need to visit the store for new recipes.

8:45 am:
 
 34k 2 egg whites
 70k 1 whole egg
160k 2 turkey sausage
 50k slice reduced fat provolone
 80k orange
 45k slice grain toast
 45k tbsp natural blueberry jam

484k T

11:45 am:

120k 1.5 cup pineapple
120k banana

240k T

4:38 pm:

 45k 1 slice whole grain bread
 60k 1 slice reduced fat med cheddar
170k 2 slices ( 4oz ) roast beef from deli
100k 2 slices ( 4oz ) smoked turkey from deli
sliced onion
mustard and franks hot sauce
 35k 1 tbsp vinaigrette
cup and half mixed greens

410k T

7:48 pm:

190k nature valley bar
 80k orange

270k T

11:15 pm:

270k 9oz blackened chicken
 45k 1 slice whole grain bread
100k 1/3 avocado
 20k tbsp lowfat sour cream
some pico

435k T

1839k of the 3085k needed to maintain weight for a 1246k deficit.  Pretty low.



here's lighting doing me a favor



In any event, it's pretty clear I've lost definition when compared to pictures 4 months ago before I started getting lazy. Hopefully I can get ahead asap, and this will act as a new starting point. Goals: better abs, obliques, lats. Sigh...